Is there any way to fix this?
Any way to go back to how we were?
Back to when I could hold on to your soft waist
like a child clinging to her trusty security blanket
when all else fails.
Back to when I was able to make you laugh, the sound of your roar
echoing in the distance.
The very noise that now rings incessantly in my head.
Is there any way for me too see you in person, before
the sight of your lovely face made me nauseous, anxious, and sick.
Any way to steal one more kiss and start over again?
For, if such an absurd way exist, I want to learn it.
But what’s the use of trying to go back to that time,
if my memory of you has distorted the reality of you
Hey can you help me with my marketing homework?
Can you show me how to use Microsoft Excel?
Hey, I need some help moving to my new apartment.
Hey, can you watch Fluffy for me while I’m in Italy?
Do you have 20 bucks I can borrow real quick?
I can’t go to my brother’s wedding by myself, can you come with?
Can you drive me to my dentist appointment?
Can you talk to her, see if she likes me?
Hey, how are you? Want to come over to my place tonight?
Five long text messages and twelve missed calls.
If he can just see her blue eyes in person, then
maybe, just maybe, he can salvage this relationship.
“Relationship is a heavy, cumbersome word.”
“Relationship is an unsexy word.”
Despite her insistance to not dress their pairing with a label,
happiness is the only word he could think to call this.
He was so close to happiness.
And after all this.
He has failed.
Almost is not good enough.
Almost is bullshit.
Almost does not count.
Almost does not matter.
1. More free time.
One of the first things I’ve noticed about not having a phone is all the free time you have now. Think about the couple of seconds and minutes that you spent scrolling on your phone every time you have a moment, that time adds up. You can use all this newfound free time to be productive. The extra hour you gain can be used to catch up on work, read, procrastinate in other ways, or take a nap.
2. No more annoying apps.
Tinder, Snapchat, Instagram, Twitter, etc. Life without immediate access to these social apps is a lot less complicated. You start to lose the urge to stalk people on Facebook (Don’t act like you don’t), see who’s saying what about who subliminally on Twitter, and eventually you stop caring about a random snap chat or what your ex had for lunch on Instagram. Without a phone you start to live life without the fear of missing out on what your online “friends” are doing.
3. People don’t bother you anymore.
Smart phones are a source of anxiety, for a number of reasons, but mainly because they give so many other people access to you. Sometimes you don’t want to hear from anyone, and without a phone, people stop bothering you all the time, which is key if you are a person who appreciates some time alone. There are no new notifications to keep track of, no random drunk messages on the weekends, or annoying snapchat stories to go through. You get to talk and hear from the people who you want to hear more about. In a way, not having a phone gives you greater control over who you interact with in life.
4. Other ways of communicating are more in depth, and more insightful.
The best thing about not having a phone is that you don’t text anymore. I hate texting and everything that comes with it. Imagine a world where you don’t have to play the waiting game, decipher the tone of a text, or ask your friends to interpret an ambiguous message. No need to imagine, because that’s what the world was like up until the early 2000’s and it was awesome. Besides “old fashion” face to face communication, there’s also Skype, writing an actual letter, or emailing; hell even Facebook messaging beats texting. These other forms of communicating are more in depth, and more insightful and because of that, more rewarding and beneficial for you.
5. You actually start to make real plans.
The biggest challenge for me without a phone is that you actually have to start making real plans. Before, I was able to text a friend when I’m already near by and figure out plans from there. Now I have to actually plan things ahead, and it’s amazing. People are a lot less flaky when you ask them to make a commitment to a time and place in advance.